Dear Nubian Woman...

This is a letter to all Nubian women,
My Afro-Asiatic Women,
My Bantu Women,
To the African & Caribbean Diaspora, Residing Worldwide

We are all systematically underappreciated, undervalued and underrepresented. When I reflect on my past mistakes and my own self hatred I notice one thing in common. Why we do not value our Nubian mothers, teachers and queens enough. Why is it I have not celebrated the Nubian queens that we're in my life, the same way I celebrated the ones I read about in books at exactly the same time, why is it that when I look at my past mistakes, there's a continuing reoccurrence. Not all heroes wear capes, I have not appreciated all the beautiful Nubian queens in my life, I have sometimes judged them, sometimes complained about them and even at times said hateful things about them in vain, when I was unhappy and when I look to the root of it.

I can't explain why, except that I think a lot of us do

I valued things that weren't even there, but complained about what already was. The women that we're loving, praising and respecting me, uplifting and silently educating me without me noticing. Why is it I can only look back years later and really innerstand how even I didn't appreciate the Nubian queens in life, where I thought that just because they weren't saying or doing the things I wanted or expected that somehow what they we're already doing was not enough.

When I look back at some of my harshest words they we're directed at Nubian women, Melanated women. Women that loved me, praised me and we're doing there best to help me. Where did I learn that? Would I have treated other women like that? Why is it that in older age, I can see how subtle, caring and wise those diamonds we're to me regardless what teacher; mother, wife or treasure they have all been shining lights in my life. That taught me life lessons in parables, I only understand now and that truly is the power of the African woman. The most high created everything on the planet with the very same curves you find on a brown woman. True natural beauty. Brown women are truly made of the universe, in turn are versed with every lesson you need to hear when the time is right. We work very closely in Yahweh's way, tis why the darker the berry, really is the sweeter the juice. Nubian women teach universal laws, traditions you cannot learn from books. I'm so glad I never took that for granted.

With black only representing the unlimited depths of this universe we live in, with black representing the fullness, uncanny beauty and hope of our history, the kindness of our words elders words, with black only demonstrating all the great civilisations that came before us, with black representing the wisest sage, priestess and abundant creation that we would cease to exist without, with black meaning full of colour, richness, spice and curvaceous beauty, in that case, there is really nothing like the beauty and origins of what we call a black woman. (I prefer calling us brown but hey) 

Hazels have always been beautiful to me...

To all the Nubian teachers, mentors, mothers, aunties and sisters I have ever unappreciated, disrespected, complained about and not acknowledged truthfully, in the past out of pain.  I am truly sorry, coming from someone like me that is a disaster in itself because I really believe we are made in the image of the highest good. Systematic self-hatred will have you researching your history but disrespecting the history standing right in front you, dealing with you, giving you lifts home and somehow forgetting that because you've been hurt, just as society dictates.

Nubian woman, of the darkest glowing opal skin, the tightest curls, coils and spirals, to the yellow gold flowing metallic curls and spirals, our hair stands up against this worldly state. Most women desire your full lips and wide hips more then even you do. You are not represented or appreciated, half the way you should be in the media because you are one of the most beautiful living creatures on earth.

we need our women, life simply doesn't continue on without you.

Forgive me, my old friend, 'she's ugly, she's pretty for a....' Self-hatred of that kind is the most obvious cry for help, I have always loved my Nubian queens, but I see clearly now how society doesn't. African queens should be praised universally and unconditionally and we're simply not taught to even think about doing that.

So whenever idiots (I have been one of them at times) have attributed your value to your looks, you are not determined by other people's lack of the ability to appreciate you. If so it was and truly has been their loss.

It has only taught me to love all my brown mothers, sisters, teachers, aunty's and queens better.

Some of the most beautiful women I have ever perceived are women just like you,

Thank you for giving me good memories,

I am sorry, for anything I said or did because I was hurting,

I was wrong and you are truly appreciated.

Thanks for reading,

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How To Control Your Emotions

Ever wonder why you're sometimes your just upset or confused for no reason?

Ever done something that seemed like a good idea at the time and turned out to be one of the worst decisions you've ever made?

You can control your emotions by observing them. Observing your emotions will change your life.

GET BACK TO BASICS

Your emotions are free-flowing energy within you. We are always feeling emotions at all times. Emotions and how we categorise them are just words we use, so that other people understand how we feel. Although how you truly feel can never be put in words. You can never really describe your deepest emotions, you just try to make sense of them the best you can. 

Life is simple. There are, no complicated methods, to being you. It's just your emotions; the influence it has on all your actions, emotions influence everything you think and feel whether you realise it or not. The fact is when you're in a bad mood you react badly to things around you. You loose control of yourself, these are not things that are helping you for the better but instead for the worst.

When you observe your emotions you really are observing how you feel. You're observing how certain things are making you feel, in knowing that the way something makes you feel will influence your actions.

Everything you attract in your life is based on your energy. Every action you take is based on how you feel, the way you express yourself, the way you carry yourself, the way you do things. Are all based on how you feel. 

So are your emotions controlling you? Or are you controlling your emotions?

Your emotions are so powerful, they are infinite energy. You never run out of emotions, you never loose steam and forget them. Even those who claim to have the coldest hearts still have feelings and emotions. Your better off not pretending they exist because they do. They influence your life every day.

OBSERVE YOUR EMOTIONS

For example;

When someone asks you a question you reply.

When someone asks you a question when you're angry, you shout

When someone asks you a question when your crying, your overwhelmed and don't want to answer

When someone asks you a question and your excited, you answer in delight

You are the greatest version of yourself when you are, observing yourself. You are not who you think you are. You are the infinite life force inside of you. That keeps you conscious, happy and healthy every day. You are in a space suit walking around life observing everything around you, nothing around you has any value apart from the value you have already applied it. You are not your experiences but you think you are because they trigger feelings and how you feel about these memories. You are not anything that you see around you. You have not yet seen your true self, only the outer shell given for you to survive on this planet.

Imagine your emotions like a flowing river of energy, you cannot stop the river. Even if you build a dam it only slows down the momentum of the river. Yet if you flow with the river, where ever it goes you will eventually reach its end and you will already know it's source. The source of your emotions points out how you feel, not how you act.

Flow with your emotions and ask yourself, why do I feel like this? Where are these emotions coming from?

Do not act on your emotions instead, consider it's source and choose the way it will end. You can only fix a problem when you are aware that you are experiencing it. 

Place no value on your emotions, instead place value on why you are feeling them and this is where your answers will be found. Remember no matter what it is that anyone in this world says or does to you. It is how you feel about it that makes it true. It is how you feel about it that makes it real. The only truth that exists is within you and the power of your feelings and emotions.

I reached this breakthrough through reading this article 'Removing Suffering From Pain With Meditation'.

Jaja Wallace also known as @spiritelixir on twitter is the creator and author of a spiritual community called KindFeelings. He writes on kindness, love, truth and staying focused on your life path despite many distractions in this modern day and age. Be sure to check him out!

Thanks For Reading!

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