This picture was taken over 17 years ago and I vaguely remember how I felt when taking the picture, I was working hard on my GCSE's and although I had no older siblings, felt there was a lot to live up to. Coming this far just under 20 years later my life couldn't be more different, I am living and learning through the eyes of others and I am not enjoying it at all. I feel plagued by electricity and radiation and overwhelmed by the amount of noise I hear everyday, I also feel exhausted and tired of life and want to try something new. Everyday is a lie and I hate it, I've had bad experiences meanwhile having voices but the past year as been exceptionally bad and anyone in my situation would feel exhausted and miserable every waking day.
In this picture I was tired but not empty, there is an emptiness in life now that shows there's not much left of it left but i'm just exhausted with this existence and want it to end.
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